More of my soul workbook unpacked

Early:

As early as I can remember I wanted to know who I was and why I was here. I wanted to grow. I wanted to understand, and I wanted to see the world. I didn’t want to miss a wave and I yearned for spiritual connection and alignment with the universe. 

I had an unconventional childhood. I attribute these circumstances to an ingrained empathy and curiosity about the human condition that permeates my engagements with clients and informs my life. 

At the age of 2 my family took on the role of primary care givers for 12 Schizophrenics.

I had to learn how to survive and feel safe despite my outside reality. 

I learned a deep sense of compassion and acceptance for others. I learned about peace and creating a peaceful state within as well as chaos and how those two ends of a spectrum are always just a breath apart. I learned that you must forgive in your life to be happy. Especially forgive yourself for what you can’t control, for what you tried, for who you had to be to survive.

I learned about suspending the voice of judgement and allowing the heart to be open, that everyone has a story and deserves to be seen without the veil of opinion.

I learned about the unending value of love and how this virtue can truly change everything. And everything it did. 

Middle:

My Mother has a gift, anyone that knows her sees it and feels it from the moment they connect with her. She sees right into you. She knows you. She is you. 

I have also inherited this gift. I don’t know what else to call it, so I call it a gift. What I know is I can feel you like I am you which gives me the ability to touch your sorrow and celebrate your joy on a level that opens a revealing awareness of knowing. I have also been training and Certified as a Life Coach in the Co-Active method for years. 

I have known things about people that I can’t explain. I know and I don’t know why I know. This information is invaluable as it points to your greatest learning, and it sets you free from your suffering, usually that suffering coming in the form of self-blame and self-shame. (we all have aspects of this as it is part of the human condition).

The challenge of this for my own life has shown up in the partners I have chosen to love. Most of whom needed my gift. I didn’t have the discernment when I was younger to understand this and choose differently. 

I didn’t have children and I attribute this to the fact that I mothered others that didn’t have them or needed healing in this soul energy of Mother. Most of who again where my romantic partners.

One of my great lessons from my soul workbook is to understand this difference and make this distinction to manifest the most evolved loving relationship I deserve. And be nurtured back with the same light and love I shine out. My Husband and I are mirroring one another and showing up for this rewarding and challenging journey.

I'm on the path, feet pointing forward and evolving,

xo Josie