When you are denying yourself you are denying your intuition

When you've given your power away or are denying your truth it’s hard to make decisions. You are driving around to God knows where without a map. 

It's hard to hear the call of your soul.

It’s hard to know what you want and to listen to your intuition. Even where to go on vacation can be a paralyzing decision when you're not honoring yourself. When you are in a cycle of self-betrayal, not facing and feeling your big emotions, biting your tongue, and living with a heavy heart you lose trust in yourself. 

You forget how to listen to your intuition, and you don’t know what way is up. Often you may hear yourself saying “I don’t know” or just decide to 'not decide' which leaves you in a state of having life happen to you. Like being stuck in traffic to a location you don't care about, and you are not even sure why you are going. The truth you don’t want to be there but somehow here you are stuck.

If you reach a level of burn out you may have just given up, because nothing really matters because your deepest needs aren’t ever met anyway. You aren’t letting them. Your longing is pervasive and it’s so familiar you’ve forgotten that you want to enjoy life, versus just get through it.  

If everyone else seems happy you're fine. You may be so removed from your inner self that your base line is way off, so you just tolerate or accept the status quo, because it feels normal, it’s a blind spot. 

You could also be in a place of cynicism where you feel nothing will ever change so what’s the point? AND there are private decisions that you may or may not have allowed into your conscious awareness – it’s in your private inner world that remains private and not a part of your external world. Like fantasying about ending a relationship or having one or living a dream job that you feel is totally out of reach or moving to a new city that is too far from your family, so you can’t do it. 

When you have the private inner reality fighting against the outer reality you can’t make decisions because for so long you’ve been denying your truth. You lose your power, and ability to discern what you want. 

And fear stops you, assumption stops you,"I can’t do this because" or "they would never understand", or "I won’t be successful". Also, false narratives you applied to the story that keeps you in that’s just the way it is – or unconscious bias that you can’t because you are a woman or single or whatever…it's all pointing to one place and that is a state of self-betrayal.